Insomniac

boys-and-suicide:

Ever wonder what it’s like to battle an Eating Disorder? This is the thing that is constantly keeping you sick because you will NEVER be good enough. The thoughts in your head are represented as your thinspiration that lies to you. It will make you do things you don’t want to but you have to because it says all these great things will come out of the work but that’s not true and you keep listening to it until it kills you. 

This video accurately represents the fighting thoughts in my head when dealing with myself. 

scvlptures:

depression is when you don’t really care about anything

anxiety is when you care too much about everything

and having both is just like what

(via we-arethereckless)

“My brother killed himself
on the twenty-eighth Thursday of last year
and I missed four days of work
and my mom wanted to know ‘Why’.
My brother
he was always a fan of beauty
but what he did
was not beautiful at all.

And last week I got the news
that one of my good friends from high school
had overdosed
(again)
except this time
she’d gone too far
and now she was gone.
And I had a hard time falling asleep at night
and her mother
hugged me tight
and thanked me for coming to the service
but I did not
want to be there at all.
This is not
beautiful.

The girl down the street
would’ve turned 21 last year
and I can scarcely imagine
the wild times she would’ve
(should’ve)
had.
But she is buried six feet deep
after falling nearly 300
and she did not leave a note.
This is not
beautiful.

My freshman year of college
and my roommate was beautiful
and how I wanted to be just like her.
But she wore herself down
till she was
almost invisible
and if you blinked
you had to go and find her all over again.
So now her parents are no longer supporting her college tuition
but are paying her hospital bills
watching their daughter crumble.
This is not
beautiful.

So y’all can take your narcissistic
romanticizing
and glamorizing
of self harm and eating disorders and committing suicide
and shove them as far up your ass
as you possibly can.
Starvation is not beautiful.
Killing yourself is not beautiful.
Sadness
is not beautiful.
This note I am writing
is not beautiful.

But you
you are beautiful
and it’s about damn time you start believing it.

(via runiqu)

Damn…

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“I knew it wasn’t too important, but it made me sad anyway.”
— J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye (via simply-quotes)

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“I guess I’m just
A clingy kid
With noone left
To cling to.”
— M.S. (via coffee-crinkled-pages)

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“It’s easy to love someone when they’re happy. What’s hard is loving someone when they’re crying on the bathroom floor at 2am because everything came crashing down at once.”
— Midnight thoughts (sometimes I’m a mess)

(Source: reality-escape-artist, via we-arethereckless)